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Embracing Melancholy

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1.
I rely on you, my dear melancholy I leave behind, an awfully flat life. The summer is over, my heart needs warmth I hold with me what I care most of all I close my eyes to open my mind I take my time, to think, to fantasize I feel I've found your soul there... It is not here, it is far away But there's no distance that divides us. New emotions envelop me I am lulled by these wonderful thoughts. I want this to be forever Stay with me in this intangible world. Our souls listen to each other The universe where our dreams are now linked. Just fall asleep, I'll leave all behind to stay with you in the ether forever. Lay down with me, in the ethereal sleep... you'll see the beauty hidden inside of us. We travel through the infinity. These emotions lead our spirits to the starlit path.
2.
I wandered for a long time in solitude, contemplating the landscapes that I admired, I craved. My hidden treasures, my secret places, everything I've seen, I relive it through you. Your translucent soul, fills the empty spaces of my vast dark universe ...my glowing ghost. ...However it seems that the light is not forever, nothing will last, nothing but death, loss and pain. All the most beautiful things I had, by then are turning... are now turning into perennial sorrows! What i always believed is that I was meant to love,  but the reality i found out is that I am doomed to suffer. Take me down, show me my destiny.
3.
Depression 02:04
I am losing every will, being alive becomes an ill. I just want to fade away and erase everything of me. I'm lying on a bed of moss trying to fall asleep, but these thoughts are killing me, only tears are falling down. This bitter life, the more it goes on the more it ruins me. Give me death, give me grace!
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5.
When everything around you tends to wither, when everything is so dark that nothing can germinate, your passions become sterile acts of "return into beauty", without the spontaneity that once fed them or the poetry that flowed from that spirit ...so naive and pure. In front of a fork road, the promises break as soon as our projects change, and paths diverge to never cross again. It's hard to see in the distance and have an hope for the future, when life is so dark and unknown. Tragedy is routine, scars are what i wear since then. Trauma drives my dreams every damn night, nothing can relieve this pain. There is no solution to this ruined existence, my destiny has been written and I'm imprisoned in time, without being able to react and change things. Under a cloudy sky, no sunbeam can break through and shine, until the rain will fall to purify all that remains. When everything seems so black, there's a light that shines, always, behind you. She is there for you. All she wants is to enlighten you, to show, once again, the beauty you hid long ago. There will be a glimpse of light, just someone who has always been by your side.
6.
I'm travelling amongst arboreal paths, forgotten by man. The vegetation around me is decadent, as much as my mood, nevertheless it's the first time in my life i feel so carefree. This chilly autumn wind blows on the leaves, through my hair and fills my lungs. From the roots of an oak i look for a cure, my limbs intertwined in the branches, trying to recover the link with nature that this world has torn from me. I no longer tolerate the sick urban prison, contaminated by uselessness. I desire simplicity, the only thing that makes me feel alive, to be different. Look at what i am now, a desolate man searching for spiritual rebirth, through solitude and contemplation, staring at the grey autumnal skies, aware of what i choosed for me. The key to my health is there. Every dissatisfaction seems to be the result of the aridity inherited from asphalt and concrete, this gray vision that I have been carrying with me for a long time. Where everything tends to fall and deteriorate, as the deadwood breaking at my feet, so dreary, not unlike from what nurtured me for years... a gray cloud that has accompanied me through these years.
7.
I feel them, always there... Looming presences. Embracing me from behind, shadows in the night. They pull me under, they drag me down ...And i can not survive. All our failures still haunt me wherever i go. I sleep to hide myself, they're always there. I try escape from our places, my home. The shadows behind me, will follow me forever.
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When the Moon did not know His own power, When the stars did not know Where to shine.
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All is useless, if you can't forget. Life is a condemnation, when you live in loss. Existence is vexatious if you try to hide pain. You can't hope for grace, when your soul is restless.

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Black Metal Promotion: www.youtube.com/watch?v=N2aWdNuBbz8&t

Embracing Melancholy is the fruit of the friendship born in 2015 between Cristiana and Andrea, the composition and production of the songs has been a long and tortuous path, sometimes uncertain but always driven by a lot of passion and desire to tell about themselves through music.

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released December 20, 2020

Andrea Maggioni - Vocals, All Intruments, Lyrics, Production
Cristiana Murciano - Vocals, Lyrics

All Graphics by Andrea Maggioni as Decomposed Design

Special Thanks to Riccardo Lolli

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Icidar Rome, Italy

Melancholic melodies inspired by nature and a painful existence

Andrea Maggioni
Cristiana Murciano
Riccardo Lolli

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